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Thursday, July 5th, 2007
3:14 pm	LIfe Well so far is pretty great, i mean it dont suck but its not amazing :(. yesterday was the 4th of july and billy, amanda, jermey and my mom and george and i all went out on the boat. it was fun, we watched fireworks and stuff. i took pictures of dolfins and swam in the river. amanda went toobing and georges boat almost overheated. in the past few months i quit wendys again, i got my GED, billy also. billy works at the movie theater and loves it. we had a puppy (pit bull/ terier) but our other pitt bull wouldnt allow us to keep her :( lol jane's a killer and dont like anything other than us that moves. ummmm amanda moved back into my moms house but sis still with her bf jeremy, even tho she likes my ex.. ish jeremy from wendys. i think shes just afraid to leave the jeremy shes with. well, i guess thats all thes happend in the past few months. (Comment on this)
Friday, November 24th, 2006
7:39 pm	And life takes a turn once again :(. Soon i will be quiting Wendys, and off to a better more sanitary work environment. Abbys pissed at me for ditching her on Monday, we were going to go c happy feet but, i didnt have the money so i went to billys house instead. I went shopping today with my mom and billy, twas fun i guess. Thanksgiving i went with billys family to there friends house and ate, we watched Harold and kumar go to white castle, gotta love that movie :P. i told my mom something today, and she didnt seem to care much, guess we will c how much she cares tomaorw. well the end...... (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 23rd, 2006
1:17 am	Another day ill live, Another day ill die. Id rather die a thousand deaths, Than sit alone and cry..... (Comment on this)
1:09 am	Shine Take my hand, and hold it tight. For your love, ill always fight. Sing to me, in the sweetest voice. To love me now, is all your choice. Come what may, the love i feel. Feelings are fake, but this one is real. Look at me, and you will see. The craziness, that we could be. Darkness blindes the world i know. Untill the day that i might grow. Hold me tight or let me go. The feelings i feel, i do not show. If you let me go its fine. Another day i guess ill shine. (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 21st, 2006
10:38 am	well i had my sugery yesterday. .... ouchy it hurts like hell lol the end Ash (Comment on this)
Monday, September 18th, 2006
9:38 pm	To a friend of mine.... Broken, as the day im born, My hearts been bent, ripped, and torn. Who are you, but another heatache, Feeling Feel, but all so fake. Silent hero, of my Forever, Abandon your friendship, i would never. Cast away, the evil lonely, happiest life, your one and only. Shes beautiful, amazing, and really kind, shes everything you want, and a strong mind. I hope the love, that you hold tight, you never let go, without a fight. <3, Ash (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
10:41 pm	The Covent (kick aus) Well today was pretty fun. I actually came to school on time today.. i am proud of myself. lol. I got up... by myself without someone (cough my mom or amanda) waking me up. whoo thank peewee hurman for alarm clocks, hehe. After school i went to the Manga Club meeting and we decided on T-shirt Designs and we played Duck Duck goose, or mike would say Mongoose lmao. then Billy, Mike, and Me all climbed into Marylins Boyfriend Joshes tiny car and we looked like clows in a mini car :P, we went to Mcdonalds and got some food, Shannon (guy) was there and we all got yelled at for being to loud... stupid lezbian blonde lady. i took a bunch of pictures and stuffs. We then Ventured our way to wendys and chatted with my mom for a few mins and dropped off our shit in the wendys jeep. we then walked out happy asses over to the movie theater to see the Covent, (which ruled) but before entering we played some Fast and the Furious games and i got some pretty wicked stickers. we went into the movie and the beging totally kicked ass. then 10 mins into the movie, we hurd voices coming from down below and WHOa there was stacy and christy lol. Christy got mad for .. something and went and sat away from us, then the movie was done and we waited for the credits and took picha, hehe. then... went to Wendys and waited for my mom to get off work for a ride and we all sqwished into the wendys jeep, ( billy, mike, my mom, and I) Stacy and christys mom picked them up. we had a nice drive and yeah went picked up pizza and yeah.. drove them home and went home and ate pizza and watched Without a Trace (cuz that show rules). The end Current Mood: tired Current Music: Korn - Thoughtless (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 31st, 2006
5:08 pm	So today is Thursday, the 31st. I went to school today and had a rather nice day. My friend Max is getting on everyones nerves and kinda mine also. My boyfriend Billy really dont like Max at all lol. My friend Brent (billys older brother) likes my friend Stacy, but Stacy has a boyfriend in maine who she loves way alot. Brent is crushed, and its sad. But Max keeps messing with Stacy but grabbin her ass and stuff and Stacy dun like it, and Brent got all up in Max's Face and so Max prolly wont touch Stacy no more lol. Well anyways.... Billy was supposed to come over today after school but i had a doctors appointment :(. I found out i have to get surgery. It sucks ass. Iv never had surgery, besides my wrist. Im talking to stacy right now on aim lol (ashleyfrary <<< me) but ya lol. I think stacy is comin over tonight and were gunna go to brent and billys tomaorw morning. :P um...... idk what else to write, there isnt much to write. Ashley Current Music: Superchic[k]- Stand in the rain (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 27th, 2006
12:39 am	Why do i love him Somethings rong :(, how can i stop this maddness in my heart? i truely deeply love someone, but he found our entire relationship.... an obsession. Obsession? wow i never hurd that befor, how is what we had an obsession? it felt so real, even though i know him and i will never be again, i cant stop loving him, and it hurts so bad that he thinks what we had wasnt real.Whats rong with me? everytime i feel like im finally going to be happy,things change. i find the guy thats amazing, we have so much in common and when i look into his eyes i can see his whole life flash infront of my eyes. y is that i always get dumped for the beautifull girls? y cant i be beautifull, for once in my life id like to actually be wanted, to be truely loved, to just be hugged tightly and lied to and tell me everything will be ok, even tho its not all ok. i just want some hope, seriously one little glimps of hope. im sick of dreaming of him and wishing he hadnt made up that lame ass excuse to leave me. all i can think of is him, whenever i see him i cant help but to feel empty inside, when i talk to him i feel empty inside. i just dont want to be here anymore, and i know that sounds very emo, and thats how i feel, unloved, alone, and sick of life..... (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 20th, 2006
8:59 pm	So yeah, topic of the night. Love... what is love to you? Love to me is everything that gives me reason to live. Some people make me think love isnt real and that nothing can hold love together long enough to make it real, honest, trustworthy love. Iv been with the most wonderfull guy in the entire world, careing, trustworthy, honest (most of the time :P, but some things just werent ment to be i guess. Iv also been with the worst of the bunch, lieing, cheating, abusive guys who use girls for sex (even if she dont want it) and money and security like a pillow to catch them when they fall. Those kinds of people are useless in the world. Tell me ur opinion on love..... Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Smile Empty Soul - Therapy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 9th, 2006
4:20 pm	New school sucks, i see people i know and iv met some new people, but pretty much everyone has changed or kinda ignore me. I see them walking in the hall and i see them @ lunch and it just dont seem like they want me around :(, its alright i guess, i mean people change life goes on diffrently and it sucks sometimes. I sit with Sarah @ lunch now, her and her bf Boomer, hes kewl i have him in Intensive reading, along with his 2 brothers who are nice also. I took some pictures today, soon ill have prolly a million by the end of the year lol. Boomer and Sarah eating lunch Boomer Jeremy C. Current Mood: bored Current Music: KICK ASS MUSIC duh (Comment on this)
Monday, August 7th, 2006
5:09 pm	1st day of School Yet another 9th grade year for me, oh what joy it bring me. I got lost 3 times looking for stupid ass tech class. Fucking mrs seagave Embarassed the shit out of me, she made me stand in front of the entire class and pretend to play the fucking guitar.... GAHHHH i hate being in front of people. Next semester i got speech :O:O What the hell am i going to do, i can not talk serious in front of large groups ima Die. (Comment on this)
Monday, July 31st, 2006
12:05 am	Today.... today i woke up at like 9:30am because i couldnt sleep at all. Idk y though i mean i havent really slpet well in the past week, it sucks. School starts next week, im kinda bummed because i havent had the best summer:(. My orientation is on wednessday though. I worked today, 5-8 (rediculous hours) we got a new guy, hes kewl, today was his first day and he already hates Jackline lmao. They got into it and he bout smacked her ... wow twas a tense night. :P, I got my nails done... blah lame, i talked to Ayla from melbourne.... blha shes gunna come here next weekend hopefully. I hope people come on Saturday, i want to have one friggin relaxing day with all my friends at daytona lagoon, i know only like 3 people r 4 sure going but idk about the others. well idk wut else to write about, someone effin comment on my dame Journal or sumthing GESH ... im bored Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Friday, July 28th, 2006
10:59 pm	Today was boreing as is everyday day usually. I went to abbys on wednessday night and just got home today. We sat at her house pretty much the whole day thursday and today we went to winn-dixie so she could look ate her magazine and try to embarass me, brent was there and i talked to him a bit. We caught Votran and road it through oak hill and didnt know where we were going but sumhow ended up at wendys. Robert did not seem very happy at all and neither did Jose... *rolls eyes, hmmmm i wonder y, lol. My mom droped abby off at home and i came home and.... here i am, bored as all hell doing absolutely nothing important at all. I work tomaorw 12-7 cuz someone called in and so now im working ( i hate day shifts ). I work sunday 5-12 Dining room GAH evil valcum of maddness, we need a new one lol. meh well, THE END! Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 20th, 2006
11:11 am	SHITTY DAYZ Today is a shitty ass day. Thismorning @ like 1ish James comes over.... we broke up suposidly because he dont have his life streight, but the real reason is that im 16 and i got held back 3 years and im a fucking loser. meh w/e i guess, life goes on. i really liked him tho i mean he was there as a friend and as a boyfriend, he said he will always be there for me and its not over forever, but i know that he wont always be there because all guys say that shit. I wish i could just find one fucking guy that can be there for good and not care about age and grades and all that lame ass shit, because thats not who a person is inside. Im not a loser all the time, only when it comes to school, i give up to easily and i just dont understand things, or i get distracted. Other then school im a great person, so iv hurd from friends who appreciate me listening and being there, amybe they r lieing to make me feel better GAH why cant people tell the fucking truth for once, i feel like i cant trust anyone anymore... Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Monday, July 17th, 2006
1:27 pm	unfinished poem When the rain falls, I cry alone. Then the world see, i am unknown. Another face, but in the crowd. The silence breaks, i scream out loud. I walk alone, an empty shell. A lonely girl, locked in this hell. Skin as white, as a full moon. She could die, very soon. She sees a light, shine from her eyes. Its pure, and warm, not full of lies. ..... Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: Broken- seether (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
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7:04 pm	Today was kinda boringish, lol. i woke up @ like 1:00 and cleaned my room tip top lmao. James was suposed to come over but he had to work @ 7am so he went to sleep :(, thats ok hes coming over tomaorw hehe. I stayed @ abbys house the night before last, we watched this extremely sad movie... i cried cuz it reminded me of .... somehting really not discuable right now hehe. Abby is a really great friend and i worry about her sometimes, i mean she hold onto this fucking loser named marcus who lives in tampa, and he hasnt called her in 3 months. i keep telling her to move on and find someone new but she wont cuz hes suposidly "Perfect for her" lmao. Amanda came home thismorning balling her eyes out :(. i felt so bad, i cant beleive she puts up with Dan i mean hes a fucking asshole and he treats her like shit. she wont talk to me about it so i guess i cant do anything to help. My friend Jordan Rice is freakin out on me cuz im dating james, he says that james is a bad choice and that i should find someone better and that if i continue dating james he wont ever talk to me... fuck him. If he was really my friend nothing would make him not wanna talk to me ever again... unless i killed his cat or somehting lol. but seriously if anyone dosnt like me being with james i dont care cuz nothing anyone says will make me leave him, he makes me feel like im somebody. the only way i would leave him is if he left me. Current Mood: loved Current Music: P@TD - the only diffrence between (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 4th, 2006
9:15 pm	i just stabbed my hand, how retarted am i? gosh i was fucking trying to get brownies out of the pan and slipped and the knife went streight into my hand, im waiting for my mom to come take me to the hospital. it dont hurt its just bleeding everywhere. AHAHAHAH im so stupid, and a lil dizzy (Comment on this)
5:34 pm	a memory is the past, life moves on way to fast. for now i remember the fun we had. its gone now and i am sad. why cant we be together, the question i wanted to know. but im my mind i didnt care, because we could not grow. life moves on, still to fast. but what we had, is in the past. it wasnt much, but i still had fun. ill always remember it, untill the day im done. forever more, ill be here for you, a great friend, loyal and true. a memory in the past, life moves on... not so fast. (Comment on this)